My mom is one of the most honest people I know.  She didn’t raise me to believe that I am a princess and that I am “pretty” in society’s conventional understanding of the word.  She never told me princess fairy tale stories and she didn’t lie about Santa Claus.

I can’t really remember what she said or how she said it, but ever since I was little, I already knew that I am not a pretty pretty girl, and that when I move from our small pond of a house to the big ocean, I would see that there’s a lot of other people significantly better than me at everything, that that fact is totally fine, and that it’s ok to look like me.

Although, she did curate my clothes, which made me slightly confused.

She never said it, but I know she didn’t think I’m ugly.  She was more focused on me getting good grades and pursuing extra-curricular activities.  Sometimes, she lets me off the hook on household chores just so I can have more time to read.  She tried to get me into sports but I have very poor motor skills.  She hired a dance instructor too so I could acquire some talent.

I feel like some might not agree with how she raised me, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I’m happy she didn’t raise me in a fantasy world where I’m a princess, the prettiest girl, and that someday someone will come to sweep me off my feet.

Maybe that’s the reason why I never made it my life’s mission to have a big-ish wedding.  At one time, E asked me — didn’t you ever want to experience that one day where you are the prettiest woman in the room? — to make sure I didn’t want a conventional wedding.

Isn’t he just the sweetest?

I think it was a rhetorical question (or maybe not).  But I said, never, no, and I mean, REALLY.  I don’t have the need to have a ball dedicated to me (and/or my husband) and to feel like I’m the prettiest. You and I know it’s literally not true.

So why am I telling this story?

If you’ve been dropping by my blog for several posts now, you would know that it’s only in recent years that I developed an interest in makeup.  More specifically, when I worked in the health and beauty industry.  My employment contract stated, “…cosmetics are required for female employees.”  Until today, that boggles my mind because I worked with Finance and the IT Department.

Going back to my Mom. Given everything I told you, would you believe that my mom begs me to dress well and put on some makeup?  Yes, everytime she sees me.  It drives me crazy! I don’t get it.

Me wearing makeup is a dream come true for her.  It was like I never blossomed into a woman, despite being 30 and all.

Several weeks ago, I went to my parents’ place for the first time wearing a tiny bit of foundation, a cheek stain, and a plummy lipstick worn as a lip stain.  When my mom saw me, I swear there was light in her eyes.  I never knew that seeing me wearing makeup would make her somewhat happy.

She even told me this:

Mom: Ang ganda mo ngayon anak.
Me: (ano daw?!?!)

And to E***:

Mom: Ang swerte mo sa anak ko, E***.  Ang ganda ng anak ko e.
Me: (ano daw, ulit?!?!)


What possessed my mom? and where did it take her?

But I will admit, my heart raced fast and there were butterflies in my stomach.

Kilig lang.


P.S. I think my lipstick collection is complete.


Hi, I’m Rae and I am a scatterbrain. I am in my 30s and I write in this blog from the Philippines. I spend a tiny portion of my time de-stressing with makeup and skin care. Email: | Instagram: @scatterbraintures


  1. Love this post! I’ve really grown to love your stories :)

  2. genzelkisses Reply

    Yay! That’s cute! Mejo late bloomer din ako sa makeup, nung nagstart lang nag blog kaya I’m still learning about a lot of things. Now I miss my mom but I can’t see her till next year pa. Hay.

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  4. This was a lovely story Rae :) . I like reading the background story of people’s interest in makeup, and it usually lies with our mothers! That said (and I’ve said it already but it bears repeating) I really like your lipstick collection – it covers practically everything. Maybe if it had one warm-toned red then it would be compleeete!

  5. Awww your mom’s so sweet. My mom actually pushed me to start wearing makeup. It used to be just me sneaking behind her back and using drugstore stuff then she caught me. My mom’s always saying that I’m pretty and that she hates me for it HAHAHA. Is his name Enzo? ;;)

  6. Ay ang mama ko ganun din, mag-ayos ka, magsuklay ka, mag lipstick ka naman, ang itsura mo!!!
    Pero mothers are like that. They always think they know what’s best for us, and most of the time, they are right.

    • Hahaha, I agree. But it’s usually to late when I realize that she’s right :P

      Like, if I just followed her, I wouldn’t look stupid in gradeschool photos :P

  7. Parang mom ko. Ang weird nga eh, kasi dati nung nag-aaral pa ako, parati niyang sinasabi …”simplicity is beauty.” But now, siya na yung bumibili ng mga burloloy for me. Idea niya na din na magpadigiperm ako. :)

  8. Hahaha your mom and my mom have that in common :p My mom naman, when I’m wearing nude lipsticks, she’s like, “maglipstick ka nga!”, but when I wear red lipsticks (or any bold color) she’s like, “ang kapal ng makeup mo!” Hahahaha wala lang. Naalala ko lang :) And no, your collection’s not complete yet. You’re missing some browns! Haha maipilit lang :D

      • No, not just one. You need A LOT! Hahaha chos. Bibilhin na niya yan. Sa 19 bilhin natin :p

        • Dinaanan ko nga sa MAC nung isang araw, nagtagumpay ako ng hindi bilhin, kaso bumili naman ako ng Heroine. Fail.

  9. I think moms, no matter how deep and soulful they get, still have a little Stepford in them. My mom is super sweet and the typical hero mom kinda deal, but she is always disappointed by my “invisible” makeup. And like your mom, she just glows when I’m really made up! Parang mas masaya pa ata siya pag ganon kaysa nung gumraduate ako ng college, hahaha! (kidding, of course. but you know what I mean :P)

    • Haha, I actually know thay glow-face you’re talking about. I’ve been seeing a lot of it lately

  10. I can somewhat relate to this… My mom used to tell me to put on at least face powder when I was in my teenage years. There are lots of things that mattered to me than being pretty. Now she’s the one asking me what to wear on her face. lol. I’m happy for you and your mother :)

    • Mothers.

      Ako din, my mom asked what powder foundation is good. Gave her majolica majorca and she likes it. I thought she would get turned off by the bright gold case but she didn’t. Strange

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