Product Junkie on Rehab Random Ramblings

Watching the Discomfort

Precipice.

I learned this word from the 2008 movie, The Day The Earth Stood Still.

The movie is about aliens and the end of the world; and two of my favorite actors are in it, Jennifer Connelly and Keanu Reeves. Watch it.

The Day The Earth Stood Still

Going back to precipice — this is where I am.

You say we are on the brink of destruction
and you are right.
But it is only on the brink that people find the will to change.
Only at the precipice do we evolve.
This is our moment.
Don’t take it from us,
we are close to an answer.
– Professor Barnhardt,
The Day The Earth Stood Still.

You probably have no idea how difficult it is not to buy anything. I already slipped twice this month. I bought an orange lipstick and a siliconey-ful face primer. I won’t count the-thing-that-must-not-be-named (aka that-which-I-pre-ordered) until I have it with me. But, if you’re being technical — that’s strike three. I’m out.

I know I am doing it wrong. They say that when it comes to overcoming an addiction, you shouldn’t fight it. Because that’s like feeding the beast. The better way to handle it is to ignore the urge by focusing on something else.

Oh, but I want to be the master of the universe. So, here I am, watching myself in discomfort as I read pages upon pages of reviews for the Kevyn Aucoin Skin Enhancer.

Kevyn Aucoin

It’s a cream. (I’m probably the only oily person who likes cream foundation.)

It’s lightweight.

It doesn’t budge.

It’s opaque.

It seems like it comes in my exact shade (sx08) medium yellow/olive-ish skin tone.

It’s the ultimate, ULTIMATE(!) multi-purpose product.
I can see myself using it as a concealer, foundation, or a pigment to create the perfect-est tinted moisturizer.

It’s everything I want in a foundation (except for the dent it will leave in my bank account, and ‘dent’ might not even be the best word for it).

So, yeah…

I feel like singing Let It Go.

But, NO.

I successfully carried on through discomfort before, when I deliberately tried to develop an acquired taste for vegetables.

I’ll try to hold on — at least until I finish a liquid foundation, a foundation stick, several concealers, and a lot of powder foundations.

If all else fails, I’ll activate Plan B — the 50% rule* i.e., I should have twice as much cash (not credit) before I buy this thing — 50% goes to savings, or to making someone happy.

* If not for this rule, I might have bought way more than 3 things this month, worse, with a credit card. Paying twice as much made me really evaluate the value of something.

This is pathetic.

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EDIT 02.10.2014: I just bought it.

23 Comment

  1. Awww I can feel you really REALLY want thissss!!! Ahhh such a shame you’re on a buy-ban or something… but yeah, we all have to control our urges. Goodluck on holding yours ;)

  2. Hi Rae! I struggle with overspending too and have been trying to limit myself for months. Good thing I’ve been used to being extra “kuripot” than I need to. I actually do 65% rule. Every payday, I quickly deposit to my savings account. No time to think of things I can buy with the money. Haha! Sad part is the 35% all go to makeup and skincare. I don’t even buy fancy food nor clothes. Haha!

  3. The curse of being a beauty blogger!!! Looking at what other bloggers are using and growing an irresistible desire to acquire those products. I follow a budget and recently, have been fantasizing about winning the lottery and imagining all the beauty products that I would buy with all that money! Haha, so sad.

  4. It is. The 50% rule is actually really effective. It curbed my spending by a lot. Haven’t even used my credit card yet this year. I’m amazed.

    On Wednesday, February 5, 2014, Scatterbraintures wrote:

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  5. The 50% rule sounds really *logical*. My current game plan against overspending is that I haven’t refilled my checking account (which I use to pay for my credit card). It’s been empty since December? I’ll put something in by March, I guess. Now I have no choice because I only carry pocket money and not much more.

  6. I want to repurchase MAC Taupe and I really really really want to buy MAC Viva Glam I and NARS Pure Matte in Tonkin or Tierre de Feu. Okay, I think you’re going to like Tonkin, hehe :p

  7. I would like to think so. Lol. I call it an achievement when I exit the mall doors without buying anything unnecessary. Of course, spending for food is another matter altogether and it is there that I hardly hold back. Which I really should to if I am serious about losing weight. I’m rambling now so okay, I’ll stop. ;p

  8. Thanks! Can you say you have more control now? This is difficult. On Feb 4, 2014 9:42 AM, “Scatterbraintures” wrote:

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  9. Haha. I so feel you right now! I am trying SO HARD to resist the urge of buying new makeup (lipstick!!!!). But like you said, the better way of dealing is by focusing on other things. Hence me, focusing on skin care items and makeup brushes/tools.

    Kaya mo yan! I support you! :)
    P.S. The movie seems interesting. Checking it out now.

  10. You can do it Rae! :) Coming from an impulsive buyer, it’s hard I know. But really really worth it, the satisfaction of being able to hold on (however tenuously) to discipline. Right now I am also learning to pace myself when it comes to shopping or impulse buying. We can do this! :)

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