Change is gonna come to this blog. EDIT: Change has come.
The lovely people who drop by my site since the earlier years will notice that I’ve recently been posting photos of myself — my face in particular.
I don’t do that before, but not because I didn’t want to.
It was because I can’t, because — confession — I used to work for Watsons. You didn’t expect that, did you? Or maybe you did.
I’m sorry guys, I didn’t post it on any disclaimer, but I have my reasons.
Just last week, I left the company. To be clear, they’re an awesome company — and they didn’t control my blogging freedom, because I don’t think they even know that my blog exists.
I did tell one of my bosses because she asked me if I know how to set up a blog. She’s an awesome woman (I hope someday I can read about her gun shooting range adventures.)
Anyway, when I joined the company, I felt like disappearing from the face of blogosphere because I’m likely to write something negative about some the products they sell, eventually. I also still wanted to use and write about products that aren’t available at Watsons or The SM Store.
My game plan was: First, Watsons shouldn’t find out that I have a beauty blog for purposes of keeping my voice. Second, people who visit Scatterbraintures shouldn’t know as well, because it could be bad for the company’s interest if I say something Rae-ish. No one should know except me and non-internet friends.
Hence, the initial lack of face to associate with the name.
I had to find a way to have it all. By that, I meant keeping the integrity of the contents while not becoming a douche-y employee.
So before I got on board, I deleted my old beauty blog, Scatterbrain Adventures. Then I created this blog. I began writing incognito because I didn’t want to go through the process of “asking permission” to write about the stuff that I want to write about, the way I want them written.
I also didn’t want to get bothered by the rules on how to simultaneously keep my job and my hobby. I refused ‘for consideration’ products and declined the few event invites that I get. My thought-process: At least I didn’t get free stuff from suppliers and retail competitors (even if they were given to me in good faith, not knowing I’m an employee). If I write something about the products, good or bad, I paid for it with my own hard-earned money.
I lost the traffic and the people who are subscribed to Scatterbrain Adventures when I decided to start from scratch, but that’s ok. I was more afraid to lose my cheap alternative to therapy and my source of income. And you know that the latter was an actual risk because I have a “thought-filtering disability”.
I didn’t expect the excitement I got blogging-wise after leaving. I realized that I can now write about the stuff I’ve been wanting to write about but couldn’t because I can’t post a photo of my face e.g., how I do my brows, the makeup looks I come up with when I go to formal events, before and after skin care experiments, full-body shots to record my Project Fit and Toned progress, etc.
I can’t even write about the Watsons Switch and Save products that I really really REALLY like because I can’t put a friggin’ disclaimer!
Quick unusable trivia: The first time I posted a photo of myself after a looong time, that’s when I decided to tender my resignation (and change the direction of my life.)
I am just so excited right now! The new found excitement made me think about where Scatterbraintures will go. And honestly, I don’t know. I’ll just take things in stride and wing it.
Sometimes, I can’t help but think that I’ll eventually run out of beauty things to talk about (with all the de-stashing activities I’ve been doing). We’ll see. Maybe Scatterbraintures will become an alternative lifestyle blog. Seriously though, I have absolutely no idea where I’m headed and I refuse to force a direction.
The possibilities are endless.
P.S. I’m wearing Sophie Koshize Satinlips in Rouge Chic Lipstick, Andalou Naturals moisturizer, and a concealer that’s too dark for me this time of year (MAC NC35, Studio Finish Concealer)