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Confession, Updates, and More of My Face in 2014

Change is gonna come to this blog.  EDIT: Change has come.

The lovely people who drop by my site since the earlier years will notice that I’ve recently been posting photos of myself — my face in particular.

I don’t do that before, but not because I didn’t want to.

It was because I can’t, because — confession — I used to work for Watsons.  You didn’t expect that, did you? Or maybe you did.

I’m sorry guys, I didn’t post it on any disclaimer, but I have my reasons.

Just last week, I left the company.  To be clear, they’re an awesome company — and they didn’t control my blogging freedom, because I don’t think they even know that my blog exists.

I did tell one of my bosses because she asked me if I know how to set up a blog. She’s an awesome woman (I hope someday I can read about her gun shooting range adventures.)

Anyway, when I joined the company, I felt like disappearing from the face of blogosphere because I’m likely to write something negative about some the products they sell, eventually. I also still wanted to use and write about products that aren’t available at Watsons or The SM Store.

My game plan was: First, Watsons shouldn’t find out that I have a beauty blog for purposes of keeping my voice. Second, people who visit Scatterbraintures shouldn’t know as well, because it could be bad for the company’s interest if I say something Rae-ish. No one should know except me and non-internet friends.

Hence, the initial lack of face to associate with the name.

sophie koshize satin lips rouge chic

I had to find a way to have it all. By that, I meant keeping the integrity of the contents while not becoming a douche-y employee.

So before I got on board, I deleted my old beauty blog, Scatterbrain Adventures. Then I created this blog. I began writing incognito because I didn’t want to go through the process of “asking permission” to write about the stuff that I want to write about, the way I want them written.

I also didn’t want to get bothered by the rules on how to simultaneously keep my job and my hobby. I refused ‘for consideration’ products and declined the few event invites that I get. My thought-process: At least I didn’t get free stuff from suppliers and retail competitors (even if they were given to me in good faith, not knowing I’m an employee). If I write something about the products, good or bad, I paid for it with my own hard-earned money.

I lost the traffic and the people who are subscribed to Scatterbrain Adventures when I decided to start from scratch, but that’s ok. I was more afraid to lose my cheap alternative to therapy and my source of income. And you know that the latter was an actual risk because I have a “thought-filtering disability”.

I didn’t expect the excitement I got blogging-wise after leaving. I realized that I can now write about the stuff I’ve been wanting to write about but couldn’t because I can’t post a photo of my face e.g., how I do my brows, the makeup looks I come up with when I go to formal events, before and after skin care experiments, full-body shots to record my Project Fit and Toned progress, etc.

I can’t even write about the Watsons Switch and Save products that I really really REALLY like because I can’t put a friggin’ disclaimer!

Quick unusable trivia: The first time I posted a photo of myself after a looong time, that’s when I decided to tender my resignation (and change the direction of my life.)

I am just so excited right now! The new found excitement made me think about where Scatterbraintures will go. And honestly, I don’t know. I’ll just take things in stride and wing it.

Sometimes, I can’t help but think that I’ll eventually run out of beauty things to talk about (with all the de-stashing activities I’ve been doing). We’ll see.  Maybe Scatterbraintures will become an alternative lifestyle blog.  Seriously though, I have absolutely no idea where I’m headed and I refuse to force a direction.

The possibilities are endless.

P.S. I’m wearing Sophie Koshize Satinlips in Rouge Chic Lipstick, Andalou Naturals moisturizer, and a concealer that’s too dark for me this time of year (MAC NC35, Studio Finish Concealer)

33 Comment

  1. wow i thought this was a review but im glad i read this instead. i admire your integrity sis! and i sincerely like reading blogs that are like yours. Since im still fairly new to blogging / writing in general i feel like i havent really found my own blogging voice yet, so when i meet writers like you naiisip ko ah i want to be as honest as her. more power to your blog talaga <3

  2. I did not expect that. I thought that you just don’t want to you know? I don’t remember which exactly but I’ve read on one of your post that you want to keep Scatterbraintures as personal and pure as much as possible thats why you’ve refused to accept sponsored products ect. Now we know why. This must feel very liberating for you Rae and I salute you for your honesty. That’s why I love Scatterbraintures :) Good luck and I’m very excited to this new direction. Cheers Rae!

    1. Oh, maybe you’re referring to my ‘about’ page. There’s a statement there somewhere that I write mostly about the stuff or I bought.

  3. Congratulations! I just started reading your blog but I feel the need to congratulate, hehe. I am so excited for you and your blog. Cheers to the future! :)

    1. I guess they still do, but I think it’s seasonal and is often not available in smaller stores. They may not have as much variants now as they do during the summer.

      But, I’m seeing a lot of an exclusive brand labeled “divinia”

      I have the Ultra Light Tinted UV Base and it’s very very liquidy and you have to shake it — it’s the same as the consistency of Shiseido’s Sun Protection Liquid Foundation or Neutrogena Ultra Sheer Liquid Sunblock. It has alcohol though, you might want to know.

    2. I’m guessing you want to try out the SPF 100 variant, I think they changed the label to SPF 50+ because of a recent US FDA regulation.

  4. Yay, thanks for visiting my blog, Rae. Glad you found loveisamutt.com it again. ANyway, I do know how you feel. I have a day job and I am usually conscious of what I write online because I have a day job. But my job isn’t conflicting with my blogging career since no topic overlaps. Hah.

    Anyway, yay for change. :) Glad you could be more open in the internet now.

    1. It can be really limiting. Although, I can’t write when I feel like being censored. So I had to write somewhat anonymously. I guess the only limit was I couldn’t post a photo of me. That just sucks coz sometimes photos are really helpful especially when you’re reviewing a lipstick. Haha, ok na rin, it’s just #bloggingproblems, not a real one. :D

  5. Sooooo that’s why! Didnt expect that at all, Rae. I feel the excitement through your words. You know what, just go with the flow, like how you’re doing what it is youre doing now :-) I agree on your part about avoiding any kind of forcing of direction. Ack! Im so excited na rin on stuff you can finally freely talk about. Cheers for change!

  6. Haha I’m still here wherever your blog goes hihi. Ohhh I actually noticed that but I thought you just want more privacy since I know some bloggers who are like that before. I’m happy I’ll be seeing more of you na :)

  7. It must’ve been sooo hard on your part to suppress your passion for the sake of your company. I really admire you integrity! Buuut, I’m excited to see more of you and read your posts, as well! That color suits you soooo well, btw! :

    1. That’s one of my fave 2013 lipsticks taken in much better lighting :D

      Now I remember the time I found it really really difficult. I got an invite for a tour of Avon’s manufacturing factory. I was almost tempted to accept it because I badly want to see how makeup is made.

      I was so sad when I declined.

  8. Whoa. I did no expect that, I mean you being a part of Watsons. No wonder you don’t post pictures of yourself; you’ve got a serious conflict of interest. But I’m glad for the new direction your blog’s taking. Congrats and more power! :)

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